March Edition | I'm Currently

Wednesday, 21 March 2018

Still craving those summer days

I'm fuming that I missed out my February edition of these blog posts. I've been doing them for YEARS and have never forgotten to do one! Actually, fuming is an understatement. Life has been one big whirlwind recently so I haven't been able to focus on my blog but now that I'm getting into a routine, I'm going to try and blog a lot more.

Watching: Black Panther: The most recent film that I've seen at the cinema and I have to say, it is pretty damn good. I didn't really think I would enjoy it as much as I did. It's well worth a watch.

Reading: No Matter The Wreckage | poems by Sarah Kay. I haven't picked up a book in a good while and that's all down my life being a bit hectic at the moment. I've only read a small amount of this book and I'll be honest, I'm not really keen on it. I'm finding it a bit...boring.

Smelling: My Eden candle by Zoella. I bought this last year in the summer and have only gotten around to burning it now. It smells pleasant and it's getting me in the mood for the Spring and Summer.

Listening: Want You Back by 5SOS. My boy's are back! I've been jamming out to this song for a little while now and I'm just patiently waiting for them to release their third album.

Excited for: A wedding! I've been invited to my boyfriend's brother's wedding at the end of March and I'm excited to go! The last wedding I went to was absolutely years ago, must of been 90s or very early 2000s because I can hardly remember it!

Why I've Been Quiet Lately

Sunday, 4 March 2018

Just wanted to explain why I haven't been blogging recently


It's been a while. About two weeks? 

My life has been a bit of a whirlwind at the moment and I haven't had the chance to actually sit on my bed and type out a blogpost. Blogging had to take a bit of a back seat for a while in my life because I was waaayy too stressed about things going in with my life but thankfully I can get back on it in a bit because everything has seemed to work out actually alright. So much so that I'm just sitting here patiently waiting for something to go wrong...

Anyway, let me take you back a few weeks to the first week of February. 

I haven't/hadn't been enjoying my job as much as I use to. It was really getting to me and it got to the point where even on my days off I couldn't relax because I would stress and worry about my next shift. It was mainly the Sunday shift that I did which I hated and couldn't stand and it was actually making me miserable. I just felt like I was this big ball of stress and I could feel myself verbally lashing out at people. The thing is, when you don't enjoy your job, it's a bit of a life sentence because it's where you spend the majority of your day and it's if you do hate your job, you can't always just get another one. It's not that simple. 

I planned on looking for another job a bit before Christmas but didn't see much point as it would only be a Christmas job. All the way back in January, I started applying for jobs at pretty much anywhere that I could find and somewhere that would fit my needs. I applied for at least one job a week but didn't have much luck. 

Whilst at work, during the first week of February, I don't know what happened or why but for some reason I had a bit of a panic attack. The thought of getting another job was stressing me out, the thought of my current job was stressing me out, not knowing what I wanted to do in the future was stressing me out and it eventually just got to me. I just burst into tears and had a panic attack and it wasn't pretty....just highly embarrassing. I had to leave work early as I got myself into a massive state and just felt like I had to go to bed and sleep for hours on end. That day, I felt horrendous, I can't describe what it felt like but it was just simply horrendous. 

Tired of constantly feeling like I was dreading work, I opened up my Mac Book, went on Indeed and started looking for jobs. I found one that took my fancy and went ahead and applied for it. It took me a good 45 minutes to actually get through the online application form and when they had said that I had been successful to book myself an interview I was over the moon. I literally went from hitting rock bottom to being on cloud nine all in the space of 24 hours. My day was an actual emotional rollercoaster.  The interview was booked for a week after my birthday so in between that time I was constantly worried and dreading it. I had actually booked some time off work so I could spend time with my boyfriend with my family who live up North and I kept pestering my boyfriend by saying "I'm really worried about this interview." I think I got on his nerves but he kept reassuring me that I should just do my best. On the one hand, I hate being a worrier, I just hate constantly thinking about something over and over again but on the other hand, as I've gotten older, I've managed to channel that worry into something useful. Now, whenever I've had interviews for jobs, I have always done my research on that company and I mean actual research. I will Google everything from how the company started all the way through to what the interview actually consists of. 

Come the day of the interview and I was feeling pretty sick. It was just waves of sickness coming and going but I just wanted to go into the interview and just sell myself as best as I could. The interview lasted for about 45 minutes and it consisted of role play which actually went okay I think. A few days later I got a call back saying that I hadn't actually been successful with that department buuuuuuut, there was another vacancy available in a different department which I could accept if I wanted the job. The lady on the phone told me to call her back the next day to tell if I wanted the job and I just accepted it there and then on the spot. Once again, I was over the moon. 

I was asked to do two days inductions and whilst I was on my second induction day I was asked if I could do some shifts the next day! 

So far I'm enjoying it, I find it all a bit overwhelming at the moment but that's only because I don't like not knowing what I'm doing (because I'm a worrier. Ha.) but I'm sure as time goes on I'll get the hang of it.

So that's why I've been a little quiet around here lately. I've just been doing so much right now that I haven't actually stopped this past week. I currently work two jobs now and I'm enjoying my first job a bit more now because it's just taken a lot of pressure of me right now and it just feels like I can just stop, breathe and relax. I just wanted to keep you all updated and just wanted to explain why I've stopped blogging for a while. It'll take me a bit to properly get back into it but I'm looking forward to blogging again

22 Things To Do On Valentine's Day This Year

Tuesday, 13 February 2018

Whether you're spending Valentine's Day with friends or a partner, here's a list of how you can spend Valentine's Day 

Valentine's Day can be quite a controversial day, some people say it's a complete waste of time, whilst other people enjoy spending it with their loved one. I'm not too fussed about Valentine's Day, I always tell my boyfriend to not bother with spending money on presents for me. I'd much rather go out somewhere and do something than buy some cr*ppy presents. I thought I would write down some of the things that you could do on Valentine's Day regardless of your relationship status. These activites can be enjoyed with your boy/girlfriend, friends or even on your own!

Visit a zoo
Wander through an aquarium 
Spend the day at a museum
Costa/Starbucks date
If the weather's nice, maybe a walk round your town/city
Baking day
Binge watch your favourite shows on Netflix
Quiet drink at your local pub
Bike ride around some parks
Spend the day in the town/city next to you by hopping on a train
Watch a theater production
Extreme trampolining
Ice skating
Romantic meal for two
Theme park
Book a room in a 5* hotel
Crazy golf
Spa day

**photo taken from weheartit and all credits go to the owner**


Tuesday, 6 February 2018

Here's a book for all you #girlbosses out there

I like to think that I'm actually on a role this year with my goal to read as many books as possible. Pretty much every week, I'll pop onto Amazon and purchase some new books to read. I've also noticed that I'm not really into story books anymore as I haven't really got the patience to read them nowadays so I'm much more into short reads and poetry books.

Girl Boss was a book that I had been eyeing up for a while but never really got round to buying it till earlier this year. I loved every page of this book and it didn't actually take me long to finish it. I only had to pick this book up three times in order for me to finish and if you know me, that's pretty outstanding as it usually takes me forrreevvvveeerrr to finish a book.

This isn't a book on how to get rich or how to start a business. It's just pretty much how Sophia started her eBay account and then made her way to building Nasty Gal. Nasty Gal is probably one of my favourite online and shops and I check the website/app every day. Yes, you heard me, every day. The clothes are good quality, reasonably priced aaannndd at least once a week they have offers on so you can get yourself a right old bargain. I've bought a few things from Nasty Gal and haven't had any issues with the clothing and have been extremely satisfied with how they all look and feel. 

I found Girl Boss to be very interesting and like I said, it didn't take me long to read and I found some chapters quite useful - especially about handing CVs (like how to get the managers attention and notice you) out and what to do in an interview. It's a very easy book to read and probably would make a good summer read. I also like the fact that it had small chapters (I physically can't stand books with hench chapters.) 

Girl Boss has also been made into a series which you can find on Netflix but if you are interesting in watching it, it is nothing like the book. Also, the character Sophia did kinda annoy me a little bit...but I still enjoyed the series as a whole.

I found the book to be enjoyable because it just shows that you don't have to be born with a silver spoon in your mouth to achieve things and you don't always need college/uni education to actually get somewhere in life. The few things that you do need in order to be successful is hard work and determination. I also liked how Sophia admitted to being a bit of a thief back in the day...which I don't agree with but it did make the book a little bit more interesting to read.

To summarize:

this book is an easy read and won't take you long to read it
it's one of those books that you can read, put down and then pick up months later and easily carry on reading
I found this book to be oddly empowering
it made me want to put more effort into my work ethics - oh and my wardrobe
The style of writing is a bit like reading a blog rather than a book which I have no problem with at all and I think I prefer reading books like that...
we can all be #girlbosses

The Sun And Her Flowers | FULL BOOK REVIEW

Saturday, 3 February 2018

I finally got my hands on the sequel I've been dying to read.

For Christmas I was given The Sun and Her Flowers by Rupi Kaur which I suppose you could say that it's the sequel to Milk and Honey which is probably one of my favourite books. 

Likewise to Milk and Honey, The Sun and Her Flowers is separated into different chapters which are essentially a journey though life. In this book there are five different chapters titled: wilting, falling, rooting, rising and blooming

I wanted to write this blog post to share some of my favourite poems with you and I thought I would choose one from each chapter.


you ask
if we can still be friends
i explain how a honey bee
does not dream of kissing
the mouth of a flower
and then settle for its leaves


let it go
let it leave
let it happen
in this world
was promised or
belonged to you anyway

-all you own is yourself


my god
is not waiting inside a church
or sitting above the temple's steps
my god
is the refugee's breath as she's running
is living in the starving child's belly
is the heartbeat of the protest
my god
does not rest between pages
written by holy men
my god
lives between the sweaty thighs
of women' bodies sold for money
was last seen washing the homeless man's feet
my god
is not as unreachable as 
they'd like you to think
my god is beating inside us infinitely


they should feel like home
a place that grounds your life
where you go to take the day off

-the one


have your eyes ever fallen upon a beast like me
i have the spine of a mulberry tree
the neck of a sunflower
sometimes i am the desert
at times the rain forest
but always the wild
my belly brims over the waistband of my pants
each strand of hair frizzing out like a lifetime
it took a long time to become
such a sweet rebellion
back then i refused to water my roots
till i realised
if i am the only one
who can be the wilderness
then let me be the wilderness 
the tree trunk cannot become the branch
the jungle cannot become the garden
so why should i

-it is so full here in myself

I think out of the two books, I prefered Milk & Honey but I think it's because that was probably the first poetry book I've read - apart from the ones we use to read in English at school. Both books moved me though and I loved that, both books are such a powerful read that it almost refreshing. Ever since I read Milk & Honey, I've found myself reading more and more poetry books. I find that poems have more of an affect on me than just your regular books do. 

The Sun and Her Flowers seems a lot more optimistic compared to Milk & Honey and I guess you could say that's shown with their front covers. Milk & Honey with a black cover and Milk & Honey seemed to be a much darker read but was still beautifully written and captivating much like The Sun Her Flowers. 
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